I’ll Be Okay

I’ll be okay I always say
Those three words I say again and again
It’s been forty-three years in this life of mine
And it feels like I do this all of the time

I’ve felt love and bliss
And that feeling from a kiss
I’ve seen beauty, hope, and people cope
With life and loss and the meaning of a cross

I’ve had fun in the sun and laughter in the rain
A marriage, a job, some success came my way
Yet through it all
It never ever ever ever failed to find me

I’ve felt pain in ways that’ll last for days
But always seems to go away

I’ve felt lost, ashamed, embarrassed, and blamed
But I’ve always lived to see those brighter days

I’ve been manic, confused, and unsure what to do
But I never gave up when I thought I should lose
I have strength that would blow your mind
I have strength that some have never seen before

A strength you won’t see in my arms and chest
A strength you won’t see in my legs and neck
But unbelievable strength to endure stress
Unbelievable strength to overcome my sadness
Unbelievable strength to help me breath

When a person’s depressed and feeling defeated
All they can think about
Is ending the pain
Trying to breath is their biggest challenge

I use my strength and my strongest power
I love myself
Because I’m all that matters

A Silhouette Of Her

Standing in the shadow
In the corner of the room
Stood a silhouette of her
That flickered from the moon

She gazed at him adoringly
Unveiling her disguise
Arousing him unknowingly
With conversating eyes

His mind’s imagination
Just slipped into a trance
As the sinner from within him
Waited for a chance

To twist her up just like a knot
So she could hardly spin
And set ablaze the fire
Of a passion deep within

If left to chance
This sultry dance
Likely would’ve followed
Until the voices in his head
Now prompted him
To swallow

She smiled with reservation
At the cross around his neck
And asked if his imagination
Were something he’d regret

He paused with hesitation
As the blood coursed through his veins
Collecting his composure
As she called him by his name

Every voice inside his head
Was pleading him to stay
Instead he listened to his own
And slowly walked away